"The moment a child is born, the mother is also born.
She never existed before.
The woman existed, but the mother, never.
A mother is something absolutely new."
~Rajneesh
I didn't anticipate running the gamut of emotions daily when I found out I was going to have a baby. I expected the sleeplessness, the constant mess, the influx of animated movies into my home, and playing second fiddle for the rest of my life. But I didn't expect to be constantly overwhelmed.
Being a mother is the most wonderful title I have ever, and will ever, hold. It is also the most maddening, frustrating, and thankless job I've ever had. I understand now why some animals eat their young. I also understand why my own mother "hated" me from ages 12-18....and to be honest, it probably would've lasted longer had I not moved out. (Of course, she didn't hate me, but my smart mouth and disregard for rules probably is the reason for her high blood pressure today)
I have never felt so accomplished and so worthless. I have never been more tolerant, and never more unforgiving. Little things can send me into an hours-long anxiety attack. Big things can send me into an hours-long anxiety attack.
It's this kind of crazy that I'm so blessed to have in my life. Thank you, Alaina, for making your mama nuts.
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